food

following on from last’s year’s experiment, here is today’s consumption. much liquid, but little actual food until right at the end of the day.
banana, fruit juice and hot water for breakfast, blueberry muffin for lunch, crisps at 6pm-ish then a cheese fondle and banoffee pie.
i must remember to eat more food in a day. but notice the lack of chocolate (which is nowadays replaced with beer)

i gave up chocolate nearly 4 weeks ago. but we went to a restaurant today and i decided (in advance) i wanted the chocolate cake. so i did.
i’ve been thinking about how to make the transition back to everyday life with the chocolate thing. i still need chocolate bars badly, but don’t have as much of an issue with cake.
so i’ve decided to stay away from chocolate biscuits and especially chocolate bars, but otherwise be a bit more flexible on cake and puddings (which i don’t often have anyway).
i felt a bit sick after this cake (which was huge) and i thought it was much too sweet. which is excellent news !
perhaps i’m finally kicking the habit …

things sitting in the street outside a restaurant this morning

at what point will this get easier ? i’m still absolutely desperate for chocolate. it’s been over three weeks now.
and still chocolate haunts me. this easter egg was outside paddington station. and yesterday i found a full packet of smarties in my jacket pocket (must have been places there by one of my daughters last week).

still no chocolate (over 2 weeks now).
i saw this sign in a museum yesterday. i’m at phase 1 – desperation.

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it’s a restaurant where the food hangs above your head.

this sign was just outside the permiter of the toilet roll ranger, but it wouldn’t surprise me if his (or her) jurisdiction had been extended.
the sign said ‘danger thin ice’. there certainly wasn’t any ice on the little pond so it must have been very thin.
or perhaps it was referring to the giant ice-cream painted on the wall next to the sign. that was as thin as some dried pain. which is quite thin. i think.

i was eating a banana on the way back to the station last night. as i turned the corner i nearly bumped in to a man who was also eating a banana.
we were both dressed similarly and both listening to headphones.
i spontaneously shouted “snap!”. in the micro-second that followed before we passed we both gave each other a huge grin.
i’ve a friend who had a Citreon 2CV and he used to hoot and wave at other 2CV cars as a friendly jesture.
maybe it’s the same with fruit – it’s just i don’t know because i’m normally stuffing chocolate (a more selfish food) down my face.

i got home this evening (11pm) to smell the sweet smell of home cooking. i traced the smell to the kitchen where i found a tub of home made CHOCOLATE cakes.
i opened the lid a small amount and savoured the odours. but i did not eat, for i have cheated chocolate today once more.
here is a photo taken through the transparent plastic lid.

the girls hardly ever have chocolate but once again here they are with big bowls of it for their pudding. hoorah for angel delight they say. it smelt SO good. but i didn’t eat any.

look what was on our dinner table just now. more chocolate (for the girls pudding).
none for me still though (it’s been nearly a week and i haven’t killed anyone yet).
today was one of those lunches where you use up the scraps from around the house. i think those are the best meals.
esther said “this meal isn’t very healthy is it mummy ? but i know it’s the best you can do”. she’s full of encouragement.

so far so good. still no chocolate since monday morning. but i was quite tempted by this toblerone in the street.
and when i got home there was a chocolate catalog on the floor ! and in our band practice this evening jane gave out chocolate biscuits to everyone.
(but on the fantastic side i did get to shake John Stott‘s hand this lunchtime)

here’s some good advice readers. you’ll do well to remember these words.

i love chocolate. in fact i think i am genuinely addicted. i have a king sized mars bar for breakfast and then various other confectionary delights througout the day.
and we always have a couple of massive bars of chocolate in the house for me. the girls aren’t really that bothered by it.
so i decided yesterday to give up chocolate to save money, my teeth and my health.
i plan to be chocolate bar free for 3 weeks. that’s the time it takes to kick a habit according to a random page i found on the internet. it wil be the mornings when i miss it most.
last night i watched as the girls ate the remains of my household chocolate store: